Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I can't believe I've finally begun the last step towards completing a journey that had begun many years ago.  There are so many things to say.  So many things to be thankful for.  God has given me sweet roommates, great professors, great mentors, an inspiring church, a community that fosters spiritual growth, and a seminary that encourages deep personal introspection.  Yet the only thing I can see through all of this is my undeservedness.  How do I avoid the pitfalls of pride in both ways:  self-exaltation and self-debasement?  On the one hand, God keeps blessing me with new opportunities to serve in ways that continually remind me that these opportunities would not have come to me apart from Him.  Wheaton, Taiwan, and Fuller are all acts of God's grace in my life.  No amount of social connection, academic ability, or personal achievement opened the door to those opportunities--only God.  And I see the parallels with the blessing of roommates, Reality LA (church and community group), and the burgeoning relationships that have begu with members of my cohort.  From what I can tell none could be attributed to anything that I did or say.  That is just my perspective.  I only see my failures and the areas where I can improve.

Yet, I realize that this perspective is also a form of pride.  But how do I give myself any credit when it seems like everything that I've ever learned in life from God is that I can accomplish nothing without Him?  How do I accept some personal accomplishment when in every circumstance God has confirmed success through Him?  How do I take appropriate credit?  I was saved because of God's blessing, I met Zach and company because of God's blessing, I was accepted to Wheaton because of God's blessing, I met Caleb and company because of God's blessing, I was admitted into the ICU because of God's blessing, I was at death's door because of God's blessing, I recovered because of God's blessing, I graduated from Wheaton because of God's blessing, I was chosen to go to Taiwan because of God's blessing, I came back and served in BBC because of God's blessing, and I was accepted into FTS's M.S. MFT program because of God's blessing.  Everything I've every done, am doing, and will do is all because of God's blessing.  How do I take any credit for that?

Sometimes we get too jaded by all the praise people say and forget the source of our success.  The mark of a true Christian is not what he does in trials, though it is infinitely important how a Christian weathers pain and suffering, but how he endures success.  What happens after a God brings you out of that trial?  How do you respond after suffering produces a particular spiritual gift which then leads you to do great things?  Do you remember the catalyst that ignited your flame?  Or do you only remember the embers you made and the ash you blow around?  There's a danger in this dual definition of pride that may trap some.  Remembering your uselessness apart from Christ, BUT your effectiveness because of Christ isn't pride but is, what I believe, true humility.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

"The Road not Taken"

Date:  Wednesday, June 12, 2013

It has now been 1 year since my departure from the Minneapolis International Airport to begin my 6 month adventure in Taipei, Taiwan.  So much has changed; so much I've experienced—all because of the faithfulness of God and your support either through prayer or by your tangible financial gifts.  I want to use this time to update you on where I am, and what God has in store for me in the near future.

Before I begin, I want to summarize, as briefly as I can my motivation for going to Taiwan, and what God has done to strengthen and grow my faith through this cross-cultural experience.  It all began when I decided to take a class on the book of Revelations, taught by Dr. Chris Vlachos during my last semester of my senior at Wheaton College, IL.  One of the greatest takeaways from this course to me was the significance of missions.  God used this course to completely change my opinion on global missions, and where I would fit into His kingdom plan.

Previously, I thought missions were a bit outdated, and not the ministry-focus for my life.  But as the book study continued and Dr. Vlachos began to unpack the deeper meanings in Revelations, I realized just how wrong I was.  As the world begins to crumble, and all normalcy fades away, the need for missions becomes greater not less.  I began to understand the importance of missions in the life of the Christian--particularly its ability to provide direction and meaning to an otherwise directionless and meaningless life.  Furthermore, after a prolonged inner searching, I came to the conclusion that as a Christian I could not, in good conscience, live a life separate from the Great Commission.  Though I did not (and still don't) feel a calling to an active missionary role, I felt I had a responsibility to be deeply involved in a supporting role.

Having come to this conclusion, I began a search for organizations and programs that might give me an opportunity to test myself to see if this really was God's will for me, or if it was just a fleeting opinion of mine.  After months of calling and emailing to various missions organizations along with sporadic email conversations with my missions’ pastor at my home church, I came up empty.  Shoot, I really thought this was what God wanted me to do.  After all that I had experienced in college, I really thought that He wanted this for me.  This was before finals.  Afterwards, during a family dinner before commencement, my mom asked me if I had any plans for my mission’s trip.  After telling her that despite my best efforts and the aid of my missions’ pastor, we had come up with nothing.  No one was taking mid-term applicants.  None of my church's global partners could take an intern.  There was nothing.

But God had other plans.

In the months before, my mother was calling her friends to tell them of my plans for the summer and fall.  One of the friends she called was one that I would eventually work for in Taiwan.  Mr. and Mrs. Yang are pastors at Taipei Truth Lutheran Church in downtown Taipei.  After telling them briefly, of my plans and my desire to study family counseling in addition to my desire for a cross-cultural experience, they express a desire to host me and provide every opportunity to me to both grow as a Christian in an overseas experience and to open up their church to assist in my growth both as a disciple of Christ and also to assist my growth as a future counselor!  Throughout my entire experience, they have always been so helpful and hospitable to me and wisdom an endless source of praise.

During the first half of my time in Taiwan, I was involved in an after-school program known as Love Net.  It is a program specially tailored to at-risk teens, providing them with tutors, a bible study, and sports camps.  These kids are usually either at-risk of being institutionalized for bad behavior or failing a grade in school.  The children represented in Love Net are supposed to represent the worst Taipei has, the "problem" kids.  Children labeled as failures and rejects.  The reality, however, was markedly different.  Having been raised in an environment that constantly reminded them of their failures; they began to accept their new identities and live up to all that was being said of them, whether or not it was true to begin with or not.  This is not to say they did not have problems, who doesn't, but their behavior and success are a testament to the power of Gospel love.

The second half of my 6 month experience in Taiwan, God provided me with the opportunity to mentor a child in Grace Catholic Christian School (GCCS) in the Songshan district of Taipei.  In addition to this mentorship, I also became involved in the child/teen counseling ministries in Truth Lutheran Church (TLC).  After months of praying for counseling experiences, God provided not one but two opportunities to grow as a counselor.  All told, by the time I had concluded my overseas experience I had the opportunity to minister to 3 teens/young adults in the two venues:  GCCS and TLC.

The more I think back to all that I have experienced in Taiwan, the more I am amazing at God's ability to provide and answer prayers.  One of the most amazing testimonies of His faithfulness was God's financial provision to me over the 6 months.  In the beginning, I went to Taiwan with the promise of being partially support by TLC, which affected how much I raised prior to leaving the States.  But as the trip progressed it became clearer that TLC would not be able to provide the support they had promised me in the early planning stages of the trip.  However, as the trip came to an end, I realized that the amount God provided me when I sent out my support letters was the perfect amount down to the cent!  Despite all my anxiety and nights spent worrying over whether the money would last, God's provision proved enough--His grace WAS sufficient.

As I reflect upon my many blessings this past year, I will never forget God's all sufficiency, faithfulness, and the joy found in devoted service to His will.

Since returning to the States, I've been working part-time as an IT assistant at the Short-Term Ministry and Mobilization department located in the downtown campus of Bethlehem Baptist Church in Minneapolis, MN.  My current responsibilities involve maintaining and organizing the department's website and Google apps accounts and multi-media organization and editing.  It has been such a blessing to be in-tune with all that God is doing throughout the world through our short-term teams and global partners.  It has been such a privilege to be informed and plugged into a different news cycle:  God's news.

So what's next?  Well, by God's grace I was accepted to Fuller Seminary's Masters of Science in Marriage and Family Therapy graduate program.  The plan now is to move to Pasadena, CA, in late July; classes start late September.  This 2 year graduate program will prepare me for licensure in the states of Arizona and California.  Eventually I want to specialize in child psychology specifically in teens and young adults.  In addition to being a therapist, my experience in Love Net has given me a passion for at-risk individuals.  Consequently, I would like to volunteer for the Crisis Hot line in California.  In addition to all of these interests, I would like to pursue involvement in a missions supporting capacity.  Namely, I would like to either participate in a non-profit organization that provides services to missionary families or possibly start my own ministry.  God has definitely laid a lot on my heart, a lot of ministries to be involve in and people that need an advocate, someone that believes in them even with the world and their family has years since stopped believing in them.

I want to thank all of you for all that you are doing and have done to make me who I am today.  Many of you have given so much of yourselves in helping develop me into the person I am today.  My faith and identity in Christ wouldn't have been possible without your ministry in my life.  And for that I am eternally indebted to you.  Thank you so much.

Monday, March 4, 2013

God Experienced

Here's an entry from my journal reflecting upon Genesis 32:1-8,

Jacob went on his way, and God’s angels met him. When he saw them, Jacob said, “This is God’s camp.” So he called that place Mahanaim.
Jacob sent messengers ahead of him to his brother Esau in the land of Seir, the country of Edom. He commanded them, “You are to say to my lord Esau, ‘This is what your servant Jacob says. I have been staying with Laban and have been delayed until now. I have oxen, donkeys, flocks, male and female slaves. I have sent this message to inform my lord, in order to seek your favor. ’”
When the messengers returned to Jacob, they said, “We went to your brother Esau; he is coming to meet you — and he has 400 men with him.” Jacob was greatly afraid and distressed; he divided the people with him into two camps, along with the flocks, cattle, and camels. He thought, “If Esau comes to one camp and attacks it, the remaining one can escape.”

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Sometimes the most amazing verses in the Bible are the ones seemingly passed over by the author, and if you're not careful you might pass over them too. Having just finished a lengthy meeting with his father-in-law, Laban, Jacob is finally set free from his bonds to his father-in-law and allowed to return to the promise land to begin a new chapter in his life. Sandwiched between these two significant events in his life is this tiny verse celebrating the LORD's visible presence in his life. Yet notice in proceeding verses just how quickly Jacob forgets who is on his side, fear of his brother's past desire for vengeance has blinded him and caused Jacob to forget what and who he saw moments before.

Take a lesson from Jacob. David, you have experienced God in physically tangible ways in your life, on a hospital bed in Layette, IN; on a park bench in Wheaton, IL; and in a dorm room in Taipei, TW, ROC. You, David, have witnessed to the glory of God acted out in your life, don't forget. DON'T forget! Don't let fear of the world, people and earthly events, shake your assurance. Remain ground in the firm foundation that is found in the mighty hand of God.
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So many of us are quick to forget our past God-experiences. Too quick to fear present terrors. Too blinded to remember God's forever presence in our life. The point here in Genesis 32 is, "DON'T FORGET!" When trials come, when hopelessness arrives, don't forget, I am here. One of my favorite verses is found in Luke 22:31-32,

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.”

The LORD is present, and He is praying for you. When you recover, after all the dust has settled; strengthen your brothers. Don't have such a naive view of suffering that you think God has just you in mind when He tests your faith. Strengthen your brothers, David. After Taiwan, after Wheaton, after _________; strengthen YOUR brothers. But in all things remember, I'm with you; I'll never forsake you.